Sometimes it feels like it all goes wrong, as the technical director at TCC I feel responsible for tech related issues, and even though it really doesn’t all go wrong I still get that sinking feeling when stuff is going wrong. I have to admit it I am a perfectionist sometimes (ok a lot of the time), and when it comes to the production of a service I like perfection. But I know that perfection is beyond reach, we will never have a “perfect” service, sometimes lyrics or lights will be late (or early, or wrong), mic cues will be wrong, something will feedback, guitar strings will break or go out of tune, mic stands will fall over, the wrong patch on a keyboard will be played, the drummer will fall off the platform, batteries will go dead, FPL will drop 1 leg of power long enough to cause my projectors and moving lights to have to be reset, (all of this has actually happened at one time or another) basically something will go wrong. I think I sometimes confuse my desire to not be a “distraction” with perfection.
I believe that God has a great sense of humor (He created me….) and every so often I think He just goes “hey watch this, I’m totally gonna mess with them, this going to be so funny!” In our hardest to worship Him and bring others into that same worship, I think we sometimes take ourselves too seriously and we let imperfections affect our worship. Personally how I tend to worship is through what I do, when I am using the talents and gifts given to me in service I am at my best worship at that moment. What I must do, and I find I do much better than I used to as I have grown and matured, is to not let imperfections distract me from my worship of our Creator. So Father I thank you that we are not perfect, cause it’d be a boring world if we were! I pray I can laugh and enjoy it when things seem to “all go wrong” and know You are still God. I will worship you with my talents, my praise and my laughter. You created laughter and I have to let it go and just enjoy the moment.